The whole point of something being private is so that no one knows what it is. One does not just go through someone's things. Invading one's privacy and saying that you have to know and its not private does not work. How would you like it if someone went through your things that you thought were private and said it wasn't private? Imagine that.
I guess this is the only time where I will say sorry. I won't say it to you in person because I know you will forget about it, after the countless times I have told you there are things I don't want to tell you because some things are better left unsaid. Too much knowledge can be dangerous. I just want to say I don't know how am I suppose to tell you things when you don't respect my privacy and my personal things. The things you found that I have kept hidden is to hide you from the things I do, but since you found out I won't say anything nor deny it. I have done things that you told me not to but I did them anyways. I know you are trying to protect me but there comes a time where you have to let go. I'm not a child anymore, I'm a teenager and I know whats right and whats wrong. I just don't always chose whats right. I don't want to end up as a hypocrite to say things like "drinking is bad" or things similar. I do agree that drinking is bad but just because I drank alcohol means I'm drunk. I know how to control myself and I know my limits. I may not show it but I know what I'm doing, just because I don't show it doesn't mean I don't know whats going on around me. From now on I hope that you respect my privacy and that I don't want to piss you off but the things I chose to hide from you is because I know you don't accept it.
I'm sorry mom, but I can't trust you for now.
3 comments:
I'm going to be honest here; your added honesty with the personalizing of the blog entry really adds to the dimension of this post. You've got the "epic" or "deep" message preceding the issue or privacy and how it is relevant in your life, but drawing it closer to your life and displaying that on the blog adds much more, in my opinion, than your conventional entries (not to discredit them or anything).
While there's a risk in divulging your issues to the public (after all, this is the public domain) it really helps to give readers a sense as to how you operate: think, write, and even interact.
All in all, I think you've hit the nail on the head: "too much knowledge can be dangerous". While our parents have our best intentions in mind, their thoughts of love-above-all turn to disgust or anger when they find out about our deepest secrets. A parent who will accept you for your faults and secrets is rare.
I think our parents are necessitating that kind of irrational action because they're afraid of losing us. We're on the cusp of adulthood and a lot of the times, parents want to hold on to that eight year-old that was once us, the more innocent person that we were.
But all is as ever in the great Task-master's eye.
you're a good man carson.
Someone told me something today. They said that if you approach things with an open mind, you'll get farther than with anything else. Most parents can't do that, and it really is a shame.
Fight the good fight, just a few more months man.
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